Like you all know the weather its been nuts, one day cold, the next hot... Pollen everywhere and its just so hard to deal with all the allergies, my older son has so many allergies, he wants to be playing outside but cant, cause poor baby is allergic to trees, dust, grass, pollen and so many more... its just crazy...
Now, Ashley is showing signs of having allergies too... arrggg that really sucks, I really don't want to add another doctor to the extended list of doctors she already has...
I really don't know what will be best!? maybe it will help but a weekly allergy shoot its not something she will like or want, that's for sure...
We had to take the carpet off the living room due to severe asthma that F has, now the cleaning of the floors will really be a challenge, today I moped the floor at around noon, and a little after 4pm I noticed that it was so dusty and with a lot of dog hair, ( I was chillaxing on the floor, lol don't ask)just perfect for me cause I have all day long to clean the floors... lmao
Oh well I guess that will have to be done once a day and I should stop been so paranoid about the dog hair...
Tomorrow is a good day, we finally have the evaluation for private OT, I really want them to give me the appts the same day we have PT, so that way I will only make the trip once a week, I can only hope that things will be this way, cause if they have other plans, there is not much I can do...
I actually should be sleeping right now, but I cant sleep, that really sucks big time cause I must get up early to get the kids ready and myself cause we all have to go to school, they go to learn and I go to help with the school store.
I must keep myself busy all day long since I have this feeling, this need of a baby...
My family its complete, and I feel like I shouldn't be thinking about this, I have a boy and a girl, I need to focus on having the time and energy to take care of my little Ashley, how could I have the time and energy to do all that I have to do with a little one needing so much from me as well!!!
Its sad but I cant have another baby, I don't feel like its fare for Alder and Ashley... even more for Alder cause he is the one that has to help me most of the time, I don't have a lot of time for him, and he does complains about it, so how could I do this to them???
I really need to get this feeling out of my system for good...
I went thru that time of wanting another baby. I grieved the fact that it was over because I loved being pregnant so much. I had to have a tubal due to things that happened during my pregnancies. It was hard watching my friend's having little ones knowing I couldn't. It does pass. Especially when you are busy with kiddos like Ashley and Sydney. My stepson now has 3 little ones that I spoil rotten. And at the end of the day, I can send them home!!
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